For the last four nights I have suddenly woken up between 1 and 3:30 am. Through the usual night sounds I could sense nothing truly different other than the movement around me. I could feel the energy. I felt that I wasn't alone. I had the kind of fluttering that you get while experiencing an anxiety attack. All three nights that I felt like this, I talked myself through it, while giving myself Reiki, knowing that I had no real reason to feel anxious. It wasn't anxiety. I could feel that it wasn't, but that it was perhaps so similar that it could be mistaken for it? It was my higher heart...or rather, the healing of my heart chakra and the continued opening to the higher heart. The sensation is a fluttering and it's high vibrational...so it feels bizarre. Last night was the fourth night that I awoke...but it was very different. I was awakened. I lay there in my comfy bed, all swaddled up in several fuzzy blankets and without any oddities, other than a womans voice telling me all sorts of wonderful things. Sentence by sentence, my heart swelled with love and I felt so safe. I rolled over and looked at the alarm clock. It was 3:33 am. Ha! Three earliest of mornings of "healing work" and on the fourth I receive both my message and my confirmation at 3:33 am. I just love how this works! Xo Photo: Carrie Carter Bédard
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Let's talk about energy! Or, more specifically, let's talk about the chakra system. This my friends, is a simple chakra quickie. A very basic introduction to the chakras. I hope you enjoy! xo RED The Root / first chakra is located in the perineum region, right there at the base of your spine. If it's healthy, you are anchored and grounded, as this chakra is what brings the earths energy into our body. This connects us to the magnetic core of the Earth Mother. Our fight or flight response (adrenals!) and our connection to our ancestors resides here. This is our foundation. Our personal drive stems from a healthily functioning root chakra. Feelings of jealousy and anger and even aggression are associated with the energy center. Think red hot! Body part: Adrenals...hello kidneys! If healthy and balanced, you will be:
If unbalanced, you might be:
ORANGE The Sacral / second chakra is located between the pelvic region and the belly button. If it's functioning healthfully, we will be balanced in our appetite for all related things related to pleasure. Whether it be sex, food...we will have a healthy but balanced appetite for it. We must come to understand what is needed and what is simply an "extra" for this to be balanced, if that makes sense. Nothing in excess. Our sexual/sensual/emotional maturity develops here. Feelings of pleasure, envy, self-care and happiness/ unhappiness stem from this energy center. For me, this is also home to the ego. Body part(s): Ovaries and testes! If healthy and balanced, you will:
YELLOW The Solar / third chakra is located just over your stomach, right below your sternum. (Think Heimlich maneuver...right there!) I like to imagine this center as a radiant sun, glowing brightly. It is our center of power, self identity and self worth. It's where our confidence is born if nurtured and also, our free will. A lot of pivotal stuff happens here. This is also where we regulate our digestion! Body part: Pancreas. If healthy and balanced, you will be:
GREEN The Heart / Fourth chakra is located in the center of your chest. This is where we hold our inner flame that connects us to the higher chakras, as it is the bridge between the third chakra (center of power) and the fifth chakra (Center of authentic communication). Our souls divinity is awakened here. Our feelings of connectedness to our family, friends and to ourselves are all held within this center. Our capacity for unconditional love, peace and the innocence of self are what culminates this chakra. Body part: You guessed it...it's the heart! If healthy and balanced, you will be:
If unbalanced, you might be:
BLUE The Throat / Fifth chakra is located at the throat. This is where we learn to speak our authentic truth. It is our center of communication, honesty and it is also connected to our creativity and our expression thereof. As a vessel of truth, our energy here is directly linked to our higher self. It's energy is what helps us to communicate clearly. It is also the energy center used for releasing through tears, shouting, sharing what is bothering you...getting it out and into the open! Body part: Thyroid. Our ears are also associated with this center. If healthy and balanced, you will be:
If unbalanced, you might be:
INDIGO The Third Eye / sixth chakra is located in the space at the brow line, your pituitary gland. Both logical thought and imaginary experience dance together to create a balanced reality if the third eye is balanced. Our intuition and deepest knowledge and inner knowing resides in the energy center. As the pituitary gland, it is also the master gland of all other glands within the body. Think inner and outer vision. Body part(s): Temporal lobes(brain), eyes, sinuses and the skull base. If healthy and balanced, you will be:
If unbalanced, you might be:
VIOLET The Crown / seventh chakra is located at the very top of your head...like a tiny hat. This is where we connect to our divinity, our connection to source energy and to all that is, was and will be. Our divinity, our intelligence and our ability to be open to receiving source energy (many names). In this center we possess an inner knowing that we are never alone and that we are always guided, loved and that we are ultimately supported. We are light and we are the highest love. Body part: Cerebral cortex (brain), top of the skull, and the largest organ...our skin. If healthy and balanced, you will:
If unbalanced, you might be:
Healing Energy - Painted Chakras and Stairways Image: Carrie Carter Bedard PS. If you find this interesting...I have been working on a much more detailed version for a few years now. If I'm being honest...probably since the start of my Reiki journey. One day I hope to publish! ;) Some of the greatest lessons are hard earned. I believe that we all know this on some level. Until fall of last year, I was still searching for that part of me that resides only in the deepest part of my heart. It took me a very long time to find myself in that vault, but when I did, it was as though the entire world had opened up. I now have an abundance of gratitude for those with whom I share my heart...because I have finally found that deepest recess of my own. I have always loved, or at least I thought I did. I suppose that now I love in a deeper way. I am now capable of loving in such a manner that I let the love flow first through me and then unconditionally to those within my circle. My love will not stray but will remain firmly rooted and will envelop those that choose to be a part of my life. I now know how to access my inner fire that can only live within this energy center. I am now grounded more than ever in my heart energy. Without my knowing on a conscious level, I had been searching outside of myself for my entire life. No amount of cord cutting would heal me. It was the synchronicity of events, the crumbling of the tower, a spiritual box that I had been placed in that would all play out in divine timing. The stage had been set most definitely before my coming here. This is the way that it works. We plan it this way as a part of our souls contract to learn and feel while we are in physical body. Our lessons are brought to us not on the backs of unicorns with rainbows and well...you understand. Lessons are mostly learned while enduring a dark night of the soul, of which I have spent several. During those many nights and days, I held fast to the belief that I had a strong support system. I did and better still, my circle is now titanium strong. The heart work that I did, my death and my hard earned rebirth, is what manifested this. The false supports that I had, they fell away mid September through mid October. I won't lie, it was as if the carpet had been pulled out from underneath both my heart and my feet during this death. It took me by absolute surprise. Even those that I had falsely believed to be my strongest and most trusted spiritual support vanished. In this darkness, I came to know my true essence...and the darkness came to light. I see it now as a time of great beauty and where I grew immensely, as what was no longer in line with my vibration, simply disappeared into the ether. No one wants to believe or feel that they had been mislead or mistreated. Yes, that is ego speaking....but it is also ego putting walls around the heart to protect. However well intended, this dance with ego must slow to a stop, and the walls must then crumble. You cannot have a barricade surrounding your heart center. This chakra is a bridge that helps with a healthful flow between the lower and the higher energies within your body. I knew this very well...and no matter the hurt of which I felt within all of my bodies (physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual), I chose to heal. There were several situations playing out at this time, and painfully they all played within each sphere of my life. Each one, provided a mirror for which I could peer through. If the foundation was built on real love it did not falter, instead I was held up and supported. If it was built on something illusionary, the pieces that were made to crumble and fall away did just that. This was incredibly painful for me but only because I tried to hold on. Once I let go...everything started to blossom around me and the pain disappeared, following those false supports into the ether. During this time, I realized the real reason I held on so tightly to the illusionary. Through this mirror I saw unhealed hurts that were representing themselves in such a way that would get my attention. They played out through the hearts and mouths of those with whom I had trusted without falter. These hurts had been held onto since childhood....around the age of 7 through 14. The lesson was that much larger because I had held onto the pain for so long. Only once I made the realization could I begin the healing process. I had to feel it to heal it. I mean it from experience each time that I say this. We are meant to feel on a very deep level until it resonates and we are ready to move on to the next level of healing. As a result of holding on for so very long, I learned tremendously about forgiveness. Although I realize that we are told to forgive others...it is not entirely necessary, nor is it entirely realistic. I have practiced Ho'oponopono in the past and have seen a lot of growth as a result of its usage. For some reason, I had to sway from the gentleness of this prayer and mantra and do something that felt more in synch with the situation. I suppose, instead what I did was a variation of it. We must first forgive ourselves and our part. I forgave my naivety, vulnerability and my open heart. Forgive and release. I unburdened my heart with this release. I let it follow the pain, the false supports and I finally sealed it with love. Not just any love, but with the new love that I recovered as a result of this journey. This for me, provided the transformation that was necessary to move forward healthfully, without ego dancing around my heart and lastly, with integrity. Love to all xo For months now, I have been busy. I have been multi-tasking, attempting to fit everyone in. It has been an exciting time and so full of love, but it has also left me with less time for myself. My morning routine of Reiki and meditation has been my priority, as it sets the foundation for all else. I am super-charged after my little routine! It wasn't enough however. In hindsight, I now believe that I needed more. When we do more, we need to do more for ourselves. Plain and simple. An empty cup cannot quench anyone's thirst, especially your own. I was thirsty but didn't know it. I didn't realize it because it wasn't time yet. Now the lesson has been presented, as I am now ready to listen. That's how it works. What we do with the lesson and the knowledge is up to us. The Universe wanted me to slow down. To take a deep breath. I have been forced into what feels like a time out. I trust the plan that is in store for me and I believe wholeheartedly that there is a reason behind everything, including this time that I am meant to spend in solitude to heal. I have one week to be both student and recluse. Long story short, I woke up one morning a few days ago feeling off and by the end of the day it was apparent that something more was going on. Healing time is about one to two weeks and I am taking a prescription for at least 4 days. I rarely take anything from pharma as I am a lightweight and prefer to go the natural route, but sometimes you do what you have to do. So, here I am...in solitude and the world has slowed down completely. It's like a week long meditation. I haven't slept so much since being a teenager...and that was a long time ago. I try to see the bright side in everything. Yes...I had a few "Oh woe is me" moments. I had several. I have now moved on to embrace this and to delve deeper into the metaphysical side of the why and the what? Why? She wants me to slow down. What? Perchance to learn...lol My ailment is around my throat chakra. I've been using my own voice a lot more this year. Instead of sharing what others have created and what resonates with me, I am also sharing my own insight and my own musings on a fairly regular basis. I did share some of my own work but only in spurts. There is so much that we keep in our own reservoir of knowledge and share only a fraction of it. I believe that I am ready to share more. Until the end of last year, I found my own voice too loud. I fought with the idea of taking up too much space, yet not being enough. I felt as though I had to be subservient...but to whom? If that makes sense at all. Sharing my own insights and what I found to be going on energetically, has been empowering. I haven't felt more myself before. It's a wondrous feeling. This is just a kink that I must work through to get to the larger part of my voice. I am still maturing and there are growing pains for that. This is perhaps one of them. I am clearing out the gunk. My body is now detoxing. During this time I am grateful to be surrounded by so much love. I am so blessed to know healers, who will assist in times such as this, when you really need pain relief and tender loving care. I've got that in spades. I knew that before and I feel it so very deeply now. xo My meditations over the last couple of days have taught me so much about the next steps I should take. I am looking forward to this upgrade and I look forward to sharing it all with you once I am ready to. This is still in its seedling stage. I will take this time to absorb and to learn more. Much love to all, as we feel to heal and mature into oneness. Blessings. xo My kitty Hibou is sunbathing with a few of my emeralds this morning. Apparently, he's working on his relationship prosperity while he catnaps. Hehe.
Did you know? Emerald is helpful to use in meditation and for use in rituals geared towards opening the heart center. An open heart is one that trusts and that is open to the divine timing of miracles! ... The energy of the emerald encourages insightfulness that can help you to remain as open as possible to opportunities for abundance...clearing and bringing your perception back into alignment. Mantra for the heart using the energy of the delicious emerald: With an open heart, I am open to receiving. I am both creative and loving. I am insightful with clear perception. I am abundantly enough and more simultaneously. Photo: Carrie Carter Bédard I am sitting in the sunshine and I am listening to what sounds like families of birds singing happily. It's a jovial energy and it is bliss. This moment I am still and I give myself over to their song. I am grateful. In this moment of gratitude, I thank myself for pausing for no other reason than to just be still...to return to center. I observe with all of my senses, relaxed, grounded and I del...ight in the flow of love and light that envelops me. It is important to reconnect with our energy every single day. It is imperative to maintaining a healthful energy to be both present and grounded. To be one with our divine self. To honour our unique sacredness. To be still. In moments of stillness the divine flame within our heart burns brighter and the light from this flame is unwavering. In the sacredness of this stillness we are taught our souls truth. We are taught questions...that lead to a deeper truth of our own divinity. Enjoy this dialogue and learn this new language of spirit. Allow this flow to be filtered through all of your senses. Patiently open yourself to this new way of processing and you will learn many truths. All truth resides within your heart. To truly listen to this energy, this frequency of unconditional love and truth, we must learn to participate in all communication using all of our senses through the filter of our heart. We must feel with our heart and not get lost in our head. I hope this resonates. Xo Photo: Carrie Carter Bédard. I worked a lot with trees my first year of true healing. This was before being attuned to a healing modality and I was in search...or to phrase it more accurately, I was on a recovery mission!
I was in search of my wellness, that feeling of being whole and a burning need to purge emotional trauma and outdated programming. It seems like a lifetime ago....and I suppose that it was. I have experienced several lifetimes since. The healing energy of trees is something that helped me through. Tree energy work is truly something to experience. Photo: Carrie Carter Bedard . All must stem from love to create a solid foundation. Without a solid foundation, what was built will fall apart, fall away...it will also bottleneck healthful growth.... Regardless of what relationships have been, whether lasting or short-lived, please choose to find value in the knowledge garnered. For it is of value! We learn, we hopefully grow and adjust so that we can search out more love. We journey to discover a higher love that must first begin with ourselves. The search for love cannot begin outside of ourselves or we will constantly be searching unfulfilled. We will adjust, experiencing either personal growth or regression with each mirror relationship, platonic and/or romantic. The goal is to grow and to evolve into this higher love of the self that connects you to the divine. We connect to our higher heart and open up to the highest frequency of love. Learn to appreciate the many highs and many lows that your heart may have experienced and the wisdom that you can either build with or walk away with. Love is love is love. Let each experience create a stepping stone for your next level of awareness. For each experience will create an awareness of what you need on a heart level for further growth. This is beautiful energy...this awareness. The vibration of love is always behind everything that we search for. We must not block it's teachings but instead, we must blossom from it. Love is most potent when it begins with you and your connection to source energy. You must connect with yourself first to truly open to the divine. Selflove is hard-earned for some, most if we're being entirely honest, but it is worth each moment spent in darkness. It is the most worthy journey. In the energy of love, you are safe and supported. If there is something or even someone that is keeping you from that, then perhaps it is time to turn page. This will drain your energy and keep you from evolving if you stick around. Seriously. Let. It. Go. When we are asked to release for our highest good, it is not because there is nothing more for us on the horizon. It means that we must first let go to make room for more. Love is always more. Holding on to the remnants of what could've, should've, or even would've isn't love. It's yesterdays loss, guilt, fear... You deserve more. More love! We are being asked to unfold ourselves, to open to the possibilities and opportunities that are on the way. If you have put in the work, it will manifest. Perhaps it is already manifesting! It may or may not be harvest time just yet, but the Universe has your back and it is in process. Trust. Love. Trust. It's coming. Love to all xo Photo: Carrie Carter Bédard Your perception is key to your growth and to your awareness. View all through the lens of love.
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