The next time you are in a group situation or one on one with someone, ask yourself this question: Am I feeling my emotions...or am I feeling yours? We are all empathic. Only, we are experiencing different levels of awareness. It can take years before someone will actually realize that the feelings that they are experiencing are not actually their own. So, what happens when you are experiencing a higher degree of empathic connection and are perhaps not aware of it? This is the lesson of the healer. As more and more people raise their vibration and their level of awareness, this is becoming commonplace. Welcome to Earth School, where we are drawn to what will help us to heal that hidden part of ourselves. It is critical to get to a point where you can say "this is you and this is me". Also, developing an understanding of why you are experiencing this connection. Feel it. Ask yourself why this is presenting itself and then take something away with that knowledge. Owning your energy and space, being aware of your bodies (...yes I said bodies!); etheric, emotional and physical are imperative. Actually, I am going to take this even a step farther. It is necessary to the health and wellness of the empath to learn this. As a practitioner, I have treated and coached many who experience anxiety, depression and more...and guess what?! They are all empathic and healers themselves, simply in the waking up process. In short, learn about your bodies and free yourself! I had a great experience that I chose to use as an experiment of sorts. This is how I grow spiritually and as a teacher. I immerse myself in all possible lessons and absorb whatever knowledge from the experience that I can. Very recently, I had the opportunity to be part of a group situation, meeting new people over the course of three days. This was like candy for me. Instead of focusing on the obvious time spent away from family, longer than normal work hours, cold conference rooms, banquet food and very little sleep, I chose to look at the experience as one that I could learn from. I made a point of sitting with as many new people as I could, at varying levels to my own personal comfort and sometimes discomfort. Not everyone works on themselves and when in a large group situation you are in a sea of people at different stages of consciousness. Some are centered and grounded, radiating positivity and healthful energy. However, there are some who carry so much pain, want/need, negativity and anything else that stems from fear. When you sit closely to someone, your fields meet and you are sharing in each others energy. This is particularly interesting if you don't know the person that you are sitting with, like in a group situation. What I like to do is listen with my energy. I feel where the energy goes as I talk to that person, or maybe we don't talk and we just share space. As the energy moves to a particular energy center, I then relax into that feeling and see if anything pops up in minds eye. More often than not, a story develops on a non-verbal level that allows me to better flow with that person. The more that I have practised this little exercise I realise that I get more and more information. This is also a great way to flex your intuitive and psychic muscles. These downloads are something that I wouldn't share and are always used respectably, as they are a gift to receive and are given for a reason. As a healer, it also allows me to assist on a deeper level. I am told often that I am so calm and "Zen". Well, this is why. Without realizing it, they are picking up on my being "plugged in" and grounded. This is also perhaps why I choose to not speak in front of large groups of people. I tip my hat to those who have heightened awareness and are able to read large groups, or who choose to speak publicly in an effort to help others. I can handle up to about 8 people before it becomes too stimulating. Why? I can feel what each person is feeling as they watch me, because essentially they are connecting with my field. It's like being plugged into each of their pain bodies at once. I'm building up my tolerance bit by bit, but I find that it is draining, especially if in a tight space. I choose to not deplete my own energy and instead focus on developing at my own rate, safe in the knowledge that I will eventually I will get there. I am quite happy with capping it at 8 for now. With this number, I am still able to help others and maintain my own energy. That's another tip, learn your limitations and don't treat it as a handicap...it isn't! There is strength in knowing and understanding what you need to maintain your own space and energy. We are all at different levels of awareness. Pat yourself on the back instead. I was asked to stand in front of about 30 or so people and play a game as part of a team building and politely declined. Only you are in charge of your energy and it is up to you to set those boundaries for yourself. By the last day of this group meeting, I was exhausted. I made a point of getting up early each day to do my meditations and clean and recharge my energy, but I had very little time to sleep and was now feeling it. When I am really relaxed or even very sleepy, it's like the filter is dropped. Imagine sitting in a room full of people and seeing their energy field in technicolour, any attachments within the field and also, perhaps anyone that might be walking with them in spirit. I have to admit, as tired as I was, I expressed my gratitude to source and spirit to see and experience this. If I have learned anything, especially in the last few years, we are given what we can handle and the synchronicities are always for a reason. The first two days I focused on feeling the energy of those that I interacted with. By the last day, I could see the energy of those that I had interacted with. It was a beautiful and amazing thing! In the end, I feel that through practice I have strengthened the gifts that I have. It's like seeing through a new pair of eyes and hearing with a new set of ears. When we practice we become stronger. To the person reading this, if you want to feel more in-tune, start by becoming aware of where the energy is flowing within your body. How does this make you feel? Where is the energy localized? What do these centers of the body represent on an energetic level? Go from there. The sky is the limit. Spirit will guide you when you learn to plug in. Lots of love xo P.S. It's important to remember to stay grounded, drink lots of water and breathe into the belly! Remember to be respectful of others, with the sole intention of moving forward in light and love. Always cut energetic ties, clean yourself off and recharge. Maintain your wellness! <3 Find me on Facebook: Healing Energy - Painted Chakras and Stairways
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Oh....the pain body. To truly understand it, we must first embrace it, dance with it and become one with it. That being said, we are one with our pain body. In order to truly live our souls authentic path, we have to put the work in to heal this part of ourselves. This shadowy side is where we hide our lower vibrational energy, that part of us we have not yet healed. Some have heavier pain bodies than others. Truth be told, no matter how much work we do, we will always have a pain body. It is the anchor of the human experience. We must walk with this pain and experience the lessons therein in order to move on to the next leg of our journey. I have worked diligently at healing from childhood hurt and abuse. I have worked through the grieving process more than once. I have worked through years and layer upon layer of pain but there is always that one untouchable thing. As a healer, I do self-healing everyday. I do this so that I stay healthy but also so that I may be of better service to others. Once in awhile though, it's cathartic to receive treatment from another healer. I mean, you never know what lies long forgotten in the dark abyss of your pain body. One week ago, I did just that. As a Reiki Master, I occasionally partake in what is known as a Reiki share. If you are attuned to Reiki, that's all you need, you don't have to be any particular level of Reiki, you just need to have received an attunement. All you need is a partner or group of other attuned Reiki peeps to have a share. A Reiki share is also a chance to gain perspective, to remember what its like to be on the table as a client. It can be a feel good session, or it can provide you with a powerful healing on a soul level. I don't need or want feel good. What I want is a healing that will help to raise my vibration for my highest good, so that I may be of better service to myself and to others. That means, I need to do the work and most of the time it isn't pleasant but entirely necessary. Everyone reacts to treatment in a different way. Essentially the goal of a session is to work through whatever blocks are present so that the path to a higher healing manifests. I was hosting this share and as I prepared the space I asked my guides, AA Michael and God to help to facilitate a healing that would be for our highest possible healing and for our highest and most soul aligning purposes only. Ask and you shall receive. Today I am finally allowing this release. I have done everything to distract myself from dealing with this pain. Although it has been tugging at my sleeve all week long. I just kept telling myself, wait until the weekend and then you can peel back that layer. It is a deep pain that makes my heart ache and my eyes swell with tears. While I embrace that old adage that everything happens for a reason, it does not soften this pain that I must now feel. I know that I must feel this pain in order to move through it fully. During the end of my Reiki session, I could see in my minds eye this beautiful and very happy child, half skipping and dancing in front of me. I was walking behind her. She was young, definitely under the age of 10. I knew in that moment, as I lay in the comfort of my Reiki session that this sweet babe was mine. I was blissfully happy. When the session was over I made the connection. My back began to hurt immediately. She was the child that I could not carry. She was the child that I lost. I am blessed to have two very healthy, intelligent and spiritually in-tune boys. They are amazingly wonderful and they almost had a sibling. They know this. Two years ago, while at work I fell, twisting 7 vertebrae. I didn't think much of it other than it hurt like hell. The pain wrapped around my abdomen and was crippling. The next day my children wanted to go to the mall. I obliged. The eldest had a gift card that he wanted to use and the youngest was just happy enough to tag along. It hurt terribly to walk, but I took them anyways. While in the store, my youngest had started looking at baby items and asked me "can we have a baby, mommy?" By the time we got home I was already bleeding. I was about two months along. I had wondered, there had been many signs but didn't know until it was too late. I fell on Valentine's day. I felt it was important to convey honestly why I was in so much physical pain to my children. I took this hard. I spent three days with this pain and finally went to see my Osteopath to have my back adjusted. Next up, I went to see my GP and she said that the baby had gone and that there was nothing to be done. I had a few friends who supported me through and listened to me while I cried. Pregnancy comes with a lot of hormones. I may not have been visibly pregnant, but my body had already started the process and in a moment...there was an empty space. I could feel that child as she was slipping away. I did my best to deal with it, but admittedly I just swept it under the rug. Until a week ago. Today I feel like an open wound. This was all on me, however. I had asked for this healing. I had asked my guides, AA Michael and God. I will be reminded until I fully release. Ask and you shall receive. I do want this release, no matter how painful. I did my best this morning to be the normal, pulled-together Reiki Master and mommy me. However, pain body had other plans and wanted out to play today. I had to take my kids to the dentist and on the way there, my youngest asked me if I was mad or just sad. He said that even if I tried to hide it he knew. Both kids have antennae and are natural born healers, feelers and seers. I was honest and told him that it was a little of both. He asked me if it was because of the baby. (Spirit nudging me to deal with it?). I reassured him that I just had to work through the emotional pain and that it made me very sad to know that I wasn't able to have her. He then asked me what I had wanted to call this baby. You see, he felt that the baby should have had a name. He said that he liked the name Tom. So sweet, this child of mine, I almost lost it driving down the highway. I held it together, as I would rather unravel this part of me alone. Instead, I touched his little arm and smiled. He then said that even if the baby was crying he would comfort the baby and help it to fall asleep, this little baby he had named Tom. Oh my...I still managed to hold it together. He needed to talk about it too. So we sat in this silence, sharing this thought and as sad as I felt and still feel, my heart was so very full for a moment then. I am so very grateful to have been gifted the opportunity to co-parent the two beautiful children that I share with my husband. We are so very blessed. I told him how grateful I was that we had shared that moment and he smiled the most beautiful, heart melting smile. When we got to the dental office there of course had to be a mother with her baby in the waiting room. (Spirit nudging me again?) My youngest was entranced, staring and smiling, watching this wee thing with unwavering attention. It made my heart both heavy and light, watching him take so much joy from watching this baby. My oldest had his appointment first, so I got up and sat beside my youngest. He held my hand. In that moment I just knew that I was grateful for everything that I have and that all is as it should be. No matter how bitter sweet this pain is, I have to focus on the present and just feel this pain. After the dental appointment, I dropped the kids at home and went to my favorite crystal store. I stood amongst the crystals in all their radiance and still felt numb. I could feel the tears coming. I bought some incense, bid adieu and made my way home and cried the whole way back. I decided that perhaps if I wrote about this, that it might encourage others to move through their pain as well. I don't know how long it will take to move through this feeling. My honest guess is that as long as the tears flow, my heart is still open and that is a good thing. It means that I am healing. I am releasing. That vision of her skipping and dancing, long dark hair swaying with each movement breaks my heart. Hopefully, in time it will become less difficult. All I know is that I will not sweep this feeling under the rug again. I deserve more than that. I will honour this part of myself that was made to hurt and I will honour this pain. To do anything less would be a disservice to myself and to the healing that I had requested. The pain that I revealed in the darkness of my pain body is as follows: I will admit to feeling inadequate, as younger women around me blossom as they carry their unborn children. I forgive myself for feeling inadequate. I own this feeling and I choose to release it now. I admit to anger and the deepest hurt imaginable, this feeling of having my unborn child torn from me. I forgive myself for feeling angry and for feeling this hurt. I own this feeling and I choose to release it now. I release all blame, anger and hate associated with my fall in the full knowledge that it was not my fault. I forgive myself for walking on a pathway that was not cleared of slush and snow. I absolve myself of the guilt that I have carried in place of this child, as a result of not being a safe enough place to grow. I also choose to forgive myself for carrying this guilt. I choose to release all of these pent up feelings and send them to the light. No one is impervious to the pain body. We all have one. There is strength to be garnered by being open and transparent about it. This is as good a time as any, to find light in this darkness. I don't want to hurt anymore, even on a subconscious level and definitely not on a cellular one. When I started to write this blog, I made a promise to myself that I would "keep it real". I refuse to be someone who writes about healing without actually showing vulnerability. I am a real person. I work hard to maintain my energy, to hone my craft and to develop new skills to help heal myself. All of this makes me better able to help those who come to me for healing. Through each layer I peel back, I learn another way to help someone else, because I have learned first hand what it is like to work through that pain. Through this release, I will facilitate a safer place for a higher healing within me. I will embrace and dance with my pain body and acknowledge this oneness. There is a lesson in each layer and not every lesson is a feel good lesson. We are here to feel. The trick is to feel and release and that just might be the most important, but also the most difficult lesson of all. In love and light xoxo Find me on Facebook: Healing Energy - Painted Chakras and Stairways As the energy around us continues to shift, many are feeling drained, anxious, saddened or even angered. Basically, the energy around us is creating a pressure cooker effect on our energetic systems. Why you might ask? A mix of deep seated emotions are essentially asking to be released, that's why. It's with this release our awareness will again increase and yet another layer of the onion is peeled away. I like to refer to our healing body as the onion. With each release, a layer of skin is peeled away from our pain body, making us lighter and closer to that oneness that we are all searching for. With great effort and dedication, self-healing will lead us all to this glorious oneness. Our pain body is capable of becoming the healing body if we choose to release. Let it out. You know that you want to. You will feel much better if you do! It feels sooo good. Really. There are many ways to self-heal. It begins with getting to know yourself. I started out with writing and drawing...which eventually led to painting; all very cathartic activities for self expression. This wasn't enough though. That deep pain that I could feel within my core was still there. It was always there. I identified with this pain. There was comfort in this pain. I got to a point however, where the emotional pain no longer provided comfort and the blockages that I had created for myself were trickling into my physicality. It was becoming cellular. Energy work became the most viable option. It was something that was natural for me and felt divinely right. Some might choose meditation as a way to connect and tune in with that inner part of themselves. Something that I hear from a lot of people is that it is difficult to get to the point of meditation. When our energetic bodies are in flux like this, it is all the more important to invest that extra time into sitting with yourself. That's what meditation is. You sit with your thoughts. Riding each wave and releasing them as they come up. Eventually, you come to present and there is nothingness. It takes patience and practise but it will happen. When I am going through a particularly rough patch and find it difficult to find center...it can take more time to quiet my mind. I allow that extra time. I make that extra time. Eventually, that euphoric meditative bliss embraces me in a quiet hush and all is right again. It's worth the time invested. When we experience pain...*insert your lower vibrational/human experience(s) right here* we begin to add layers to the pain body. That energy becomes trapped in our essence. We need to release this energy. Eventually, if unreleased, the pain will manifest on a cellular level causing illness. There is no escaping this eventuality. Hurt, frustration, grief, fear are all catalysts for energy upset. So, how do you get rid of it? Through heat, movement, tears...you are literally getting rid of the "thing" that caused the upset. When you cry, the tears are the upset leaving your body. When you run, do hot yoga or some other sporty activity, the sweat is that "thing" leaving your body. When you punch and scream into a pillow...again, you are releasing that "thing". That "thing" is slimy and sticky and is an attachment energy that does not want to be released. Only you can make that choice. We are the key keepers of our own energetic systems. We must first choose to consciously release. After the release, it's a great time to cleanse yourself of any residual negative charge. Smudging with a good mix of organically grown lavender and white sage work wonders for the energy fields around the body. Enjoying an Epsom salt bath and throwing in (gently place, really!!!) some water / salt-resistant crystals that call to you along with perhaps some flower petals. Crystals are great for healing the higher fields around the physical body. Flowers are high vibrational and will help to create a perfect healing bath. (Dry brushing daily is a great aftercare activity to maintain). After a good cleansing, I like to recharge using crystal healing, Reiki and bio-energetics. A good 30 minute to 1 hour session is both plentiful and essentially what works wonders for me. Afterwards I feel complete and ready for the next wave. We are all different. What works for me will be different for you. Also, getting plentiful rest, drinking lots of water and eating whole foods is imperative....especially when we are experiencing release and healing afterwards. Being conscious of what we put into our bodies and eating a more alkaline diet is good preventative medicine. Grounding activities are especially helpful when working through layers of your pain body. Do some earthing! Take off your shoes and socks, and connect your bare feet with garden soil, forest bed or even your own lawn! Sit down and place the palms of your hands and the soles of your feet on the earth. Breathe deeply and feel that connection. Sit with your thoughts for as long as you feel guided to. Feel the unbalanced energy leaving your body and also be conscious of the restorative energy that pulsates from the earth and into you. This is healthful, healing and balancing. Just remember that none of this work is immediate and that it does takes time. When you choose to self-heal, it takes patience and dedication. Don't be hard on yourself and seek out support if you need it. It isn't for the faint of heart and requires you to muster up all of your strength and courage. You are not alone. As your energy changes, you will attract like-minded peeps. Peeling back each layer is the greatest act of self-love. Make that choice to love yourself. Say it with me and say it loud, "Onion, therefore I am". Find me on facebook: https://www.facebook.com/PaintedChakrasAndStairways Love and light to all of you. xoxo |
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