It's been a challenging couple of weeks. Sleep has been intermittent at best. It's been a time of great growth, and with great growth...there is an increase in awareness. Usually this translates into several sleepless nights. This is of course a very precious gift. The growth. The awareness. This travels through bloodlines for generations upon generations. It is worth the effort. I know this all too well. I have always been alerted to the passing of those I have had a heart connection with (platonic, romantic or otherwise). It is not uncommon for those with extrasensory perception to be aware of something as simple as this. This last time it was quite different though. I was woken up 4 or 5 times between the hours of 1:30am and 5:21am with a panicky feeling. At least at the time, that is how my body registered the feeling as being...anxiety like. When I was poked awake (feels more like a "woosh") the first time, I peered into the darkness to see if there was someone there...this happens sometimes and I politely tell them to approach during waking hours. Only I did not see a silhouette, a ripple of energy, a notion that someone was standing bedside. I instead felt this feeling of panic that woke me up to darkness. I tried to fall back asleep, but succeeded only in laying there resting in a meditative like state. I initiated my Reiki and began a self-healing session while I rested hoping to drift off, only it never happened. When my alarm went off I was very aware of the feeling that something felt off. Something that was not of me but a part of me, even though I was fully aligned and centered. I mean, how could I not be after several hours of self-healing? I still wanted so badly to sleep but I couldn't. I had to go to work. I went about my day, drinking a token cup of coffee, despite the impending heartburn, to kick my butt awake in an effort to plow through until pajama time. It was as I sat in my pajama's later that evening, cuddled with my dog, that I received a text from an old friend. He told me that an old work colleague with whom I had been close to while working with that company, had passed that morning. I understood immediately what the night before was attempting to prepare me for. It was not a feeling of panic...but instead the feeling what this person felt pre-crossing. I have had a similar transmission like this before. It happened right before my maternal Grandmother passed. As I lay snuggled in my bed, the night before her surgery, I asked openly for her not to suffer. Should it be her time to leave us, as heart breaking as that would be, for her soul to feel free to return to glory with my full support. The idea of her having prolonged suffering made me feel sick inside. That night I was awakened by a feeling of someone crossing over my feet. I opened my eyes to this gentleman, standing on the opposite side of the bed. I couldn't speak. He was made of what seemed like a liquid amber. He was the most stunningly beautiful man that I have ever seen. His eyes bore into mine and I felt the word "no" as he very gently moved his head from side to side. I felt the deepest ache within my heart and it hurt so much. Just like that he was gone and I got up to get a glass of water and then promptly went back to sleep. My Grandmother died three days later at the young age of 67. I thought about this visitation for a very long time afterwards. The day my maternal Grandmother passed I was working. I could feel this energy beside me. Moving with me. Trying to get my attention. When my husband arrived out of the blue to pick me up and take me home...in my heart I already knew. With one look I knew. AND... I knew that she had been moving with me etherically that whole morning. It felt bizarre and she offered me a lot of communication in the days that followed. I did attempt to share with family but when grief takes hold, people get kind of stuck inside of themselves for a bit. Although I do hear spirit, I have found that my guides communicate in a different way. They do not use words. They communicate telepathically and with colour. They will awaken a feeling within my body, or show me images that help me to piece together their message to me. I know that I was prepared the night before my friends crossing this way. Just as I know the gentleman that appeared bedside before my maternal Grandmother passed, was in fact, one of my higher guides. It is a deeper knowing that you can feel in every cell of your body and it pulsates. It can be something challenging to explain to someone who does not experience it. For me personally, it helps to transition the grief into productivity. This greater knowing brings me peace. My preference is not to be woken up during the night, but this is when I am most relaxed and they have my full attention. Sooo...it is what it is, I guess. I do not get woken up nearly as often as I used to. I have had to set some boundaries. Some instances are worth being woken up for though. I have times during the day where I welcome the visitation and we have an established set of guidelines. Communication and boundaries are a healthy part of any relationship, after all! I am still in a state of learning to understand the full scope of the mediumship and channeling that I can do. I attended a healing workshop recently and I have been reminded again that it is time. In fact it is already progressing nicely...as in the train is leaving the station and I am choo-chooing along whether I like it or not. It's a good thing that I like it. It's my normal. It's just time to understand the depth of the conversation and what I can do with this. All I know for certain is that this is something that I will be devoting a lot of time to understanding. It's not something that will ever go away. It's a skill that must be continuously developed And, because this travels in bloodlines, I'm not just doing this development work for myself. I am also doing it for those that come after me in lineage. But that's a story for another time... Carrie Carter -Painted Chakras and Stairways (Located in Hull/Aylmer, QC area) Usui Shiki Ryoho Master/Teacher Lightarian™ Reiki Master/Teacher Crystal & Mineral Master/Teacher Soul / Healing Coach Affiliate Member of The International Center for Reiki Training Member of The Wellness Universe
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