Yesterday was an intense day. The energy of the eclipse represented different things to different people. For me personally, it was about letting go, stepping up and trusting in my higher power to help me make sense of all the shifting. It was a time of emergence, renewal and of bittersweet endings and beginnings. My day began with 2 or 3 calls from my employer about an alarm going off. I'm on a staycation/vacation and was up because my pup gets up at stupid o'clock in the morning. I didn't mind any of the calls, as I had been awake for a bit anyhow and I'm blessed to love the people that I work with. I was honestly happy to help out. I thought that we had settled the alarm issue and then the phone rang again. I half laughed but when I answered the phone it was my Dad. My Grandmother had been rushed to the hospital and he was on his way to pick up my Grandfather. I just knew. I visit my Grandparents every weekend. I'll schedule my whole life around each visit because I understand the sacredness of the time that we have left together. My Grandmother had Alzheimer's and she would have good days and then bad. Most days she didn't know my name and would call my honey. She'd lost the ability to complete full sentences some time ago but it was easy enough to guess what she wanted to communicate, if she was able to. Last weekend, I took my boys to visit and she was having a particularly challenging day. Regardless, no time spent in the company of those you love is ever wasted, and I am grateful that I brought them, even if it was a very heart heavy visit. I was able to refresh her nail polish and my Grandfather was concerned that her hair appeared too flat, so we fluffed that up a bit too. She didn't seem to care and was a bit flustered over the attention. We joked that it was like having a spa day, but the joke was unfortunately lost on her. I noted that her pallor was greyish and I could see a lot of white around her. She seemed to be leaving or preparing to leave. She was ready to let go. Two days before her passing, I had the strange sensation of hearing a woman cry. I was sitting at my desk at work and the feeling took hold of me for a few seconds. It was like hearing whimpers, coupled with a heavy pit of sadness and I could sense death. I shared this with one of my closest friends and decided that I would see how she was when I visited over the weekend. Of course, I would never see her again. The day that my Grandmother passed, I woke up as usual to take the dog out for her morning routine. While puppy did her business, I stood on my back deck and did my morning healing meditation with Reiki. When I was about 3/4 of the way through my self-healing the left side of my peripheral vision was bathed in golden light. This usually doesn't happen and I knew that it meant something more. I acknowledged the light and I offered my gratitude for this gift of sight. That's when the phone started to ring. First it was work...then work again...until it was my Dad. I knew that my Grandmother wouldn't return home. I couldn't feel her the same way from a distance. Instead I could sense her close. Everyone has a unique energy signature. It's an energy that makes you, uniquely you. It's a culmination of all of the senses in ethereal form. I could sense this. My hubby drove me to the apartment, where we met with my Grandfather, my Dad and his wife. We sat and talked and shared stories. I brought flowers that we had carefully selected because of the pinks in the bouquet. My Grandmother would have loved them. She just loved pink, peach and corals. My Dad walked us to the car and we left. My Grandfather had to have lunch and then leave for the hospital himself, as he was scheduled to have a minor hand surgery. Of course, keep in mind that he is 95 years young and a Veteran. He's as strong and proud as he is full of love. He's tough beans. His surgery went well and he's already moving his hand! I'm pretty sure that he hasn't barely begun to process everything. They were married for over 70 years. I had scheduled an attunement for Lightarian Reiki in the early afternoon, so I had to prepare for that. It was booked well in advance and scheduled purposely for the eclipse. My attunement went well. I am now an Usui Reiki Master and a Lightarian Reiki Master (level 1 and 2) and registered with the Lightarian Reiki Association. It meant a lot to me to complete this and move forward despite everything. One of the many benefits to Lightarian Reiki is that you connect to the highest vibration, becoming more sensitive and experiencing an increase in your level of awareness. I moved forward because of the golden light that I saw during my morning meditation. I knew it was the right thing to do for my advancement, wellness and overall healing. I know that a lot of us felt the shift in different ways. I feel as though we are all going to see differently now, for whatever reason resonates with you personally. I feel those of us who work at healing ourselves, letting go of what no longer serves us, reclaiming our power and after a period of adjustment, settling into this new heart space that the current shift has created for all of us. That's the long and the short of it. As for my Grandmother, I know that she is better off where she is. She is no longer held hostage within her shell. She chose to let go after a decade of struggle with Alzheimer's. She is free and she is with her higher power. She is bathed in golden light. This morning when I woke up, I opened my eyes to a sky that had a hundred shades of pink, peach and coral, and dusted with beautiful, fluffy clouds. One of the clouds had a large heart shaped hole that was filled with a brilliant pink light. I'd like to think that my Grandmother was saying good morning. Love to all on your journey. xo Photo: Carrie Carter Bedard Find me on Facebook: Healing Energy- Painted Chakras and Stairways
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